Spinning ~ Again

You guessed it ~ spinning out of control ~ again! You know that feeling you get when you have gotten onto a ride at the fair and realize after the ride has started that you really weren't sure what you were getting yourself into until it was too late. You just shut your eyes and hold on for dear life and tell yourself that it will all be over in a couple of minutes. The spinning will stop soon. Well ~ shutting my eyes really tight and holding onto my desk does not work that well while I am at work. It doesn't bode well for a very productive Monday!

So ~ how do I really feel about all of this??? I am not a happy camper ~ I never realized how closely emotions are linked ~ like MAD & SAD. When I am having a lot of symptoms, I tend to be angry most of the day ~ which is a really bizarre phenomenon ~ because I am really feeling sad. It's confusing, even to me ~ it's like everything in my brain has been put in a blender and mixed up. Then, I am supposed to look at what's left and make some sense out of it ~ SERIOUSLY makes me feel like a crazy person! So ~ a word of advice to friends and family ~ if I say something mean ~ don't take it personally ~ it's my brain tail talking and not me! But, seriously, in advance ~ 'I am sorry!'.