Somewhere In the Middle

Do you ever feel like you are stuck in the middle ~ between the now and the not yet? I am there ~ waiting for a surge of forces larger than myself to push me into the next phase of my journey. How long can I bravely walk through the shadow of the valley ~ my strength ~ both physical and emotional ~ are waning.

I know ~ I shouldn't complain ~ I just got some good feedback on Friday ~ but for me ~ it's not enough! I want concrete letters in my hand ~ definite surgery dates. Enough already with the drama of the insurance dance ~ once again I am beginning to think that I am making all of this up and it's all in my head. Does the fact that I need a seat belt for my desk chair today so that I don't fall out of it indicate that I'm not 100%?

Casting Crowns released their newest CD today ~ The Alter and the Door. I have already found a new song that speaks right to me ~ Somewhere In The Middle ~ "Deep water faith in the shallow end..." ~ what an image ~ I can do deep water ~ let's go!

Somewhere In The Middle ~ Casting Crowns

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle you'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who you're making me
Somewhere in the middle you'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender
Cause I'm losing all control

Fearless Warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep-water faith in the shallow end
We are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences
The God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for his
Or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves
Somewhere between a whisper and the Lord
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more

Somewhere in the middle you'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender
Cause I'm losing all control

Fearless Warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep-water faith in the shallow end
We are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences
The God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His
Or are we caught in the middle

Fearless Warriors in a picket fence
Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep-water faith in the shallow end
We are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences
The God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His
Or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Lord I feel you in this place
And I know your by my side
Loving me even on these nights
When I am caught in the the middle
Caught in the middle