I was under the impression that after surgery the path would be clear ~ I was so wrong. Just a little reminder to me that Christ is in charge of my life and not me. I couldn't be more confused ~ it may be because of the haze of morphine ~ but still ~ what am I supposed to be doing right now?
TCI told me yesterday that I should expect to be out of work for a total of THREE MONTHS! Are you kidding me? I am already frustrated to be trapped inside of a weak body ~ my mind getting more clear every day and I have delusions of grandour of me running again ~ just going to have to hold onto that dream for a while. Meanwhile ~ I have to keep reminding myself that I have to continue to walk by faith and my path will be revealed.
Walk By Faith ~ Jeremy Camp
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
Help me to RID my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With the one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do
yeah, yeah , yeah, yeah, ya
well i will walk by faith
even when i cannot see
because this broken road
prepares your will for me
Well I'm broken- but I still see Your face
Well You've spoken- pouring Your words of grace
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
(Repeat)
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me
Hallelujah, hallelu
I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith,
I will walk by faith
I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith,
I will walk by faith
I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith,
I will walk by faith
I will walk by faith
I will walk,I will walk
Faith
I will walk, I will walk by faith
This broken road bears your will for me ~
5 comments:
I know it's frustrating being limited in what you can do. You will get a little stronger each day! How is your head? Is your headache still better? (I hope so.)
Lacie,
I'm so glad that you continue to trust Him in every circumstance!
AMEN!
Love you,
Jo
Three months seems like forever, but you do need the rest. You faith is amazing. Just continue to keep your weary eyes focused on Him and all is good.
Lace-
3 months seems like a long time, I know, but believe me, the very last thing you want to do is jump back in too fast. It landed me square on my back in bed for 3 days, and most possibly, with a leak in my duraplasty (which is now sealed). Enjoy the days, read a few good books, watch some dvds (I have all 10 seasons of Friends and 5 of 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls if you'd like to borrow them) and let yourself heal. It will do you exactly zero good to try to rush through recovery.
About your question- I truly don't know. My neurosurgeon doesn't believe that my chiari was related to a tethered cord because my cranium was obviously malformed so that seems to be the culprit of pushing the brain down. The symptoms I have now are mainly and inability to feel most of my left hand, as well as extreme weakness in both hands, and now numbness in my left foot.
Thanks so incredibly much for the hugs and know that I'm still saying lots of prayers for your recovery, of both body and sanity :)
Take a deep breath dear, and remember
Sharon went back to work two months to soon, and payed an awful price. She is struggling to get out of bed each morning, and the bad days are starting to out number the good. We are facing the reality of her applying for SSDI in the next week. So, sometimes I think "this can't be happening", but when I think of how I felt 6 years ago, after being told that she needed a occipital/orbital fusion, I am oh so grateful. Please relax. Our prayers are with you, Lace.
Bobby
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