Sunday, January 13, 2008

Reflecting

A few months ago I had the pleasure of meeting a fellow chiarian for breakfast. We had exchanged e-mails ~ shared our chiari journeys ~ actually meeting her face to face was like being reunited with an old friend. Even though she has already had her surgeries and is way ahead of me in her chiari journey, we share a kinship ~ bonded by the brain tail.


One of the things that she said to me that has stayed with me is the fact that in the months prior to her surgery ~ she can't remember anything in that time period. I am finding the same is true for me. I seem to be on auto pilot ~ plodding through each day ~ and yet time seems to be flying by at warp speeds at the same time!

I am trying to stay focused on the present so that I am here in the now and not in the past or the future. Searching for that inescapable peace and serenity that comes from knowing that everything is going to turn out fine ~ fighting the urge to grab my passport and get the heck out of dodge! But truth be known, the brain tail goes wherever I go ~ serenity now!

1 comment:

Queli said...

I'll tell you what my friends tell me...It's all in your head!
Isn't it funny how we both had to fight for something we would really love not to go through!
Don't run now, your in expert hands :)
Keep the faith,
Q