Illumination

The other day I was organizing some books in my bedroom and I re-discovered a journal entry that I had made after a breath work back in August of 2006. You can read more about what a breathwork is about in by clicking the underlined linked text ~ but basically it is a way of meditating deeply by taking in deep breaths which creates a dreamlike altered state. I have done several breathworks and each time I have breathed it has brought clarity and healing into my life. The last breathwork experience I had was full of profound messages that I stored away for another time. At the time I didn't know what the messages meant, but now, the messages bring illumination.

I won't go in great detail on my experience, but will share with you some of the profound messages I received. I am going to set up the scene ~ keep in mind that the breathwork is very dreamlike. My journey started out with me running across a desert somewhere in Africa. I was methodically running for a long time, across great distances all by myself. No fear ~ no pain ~ just a growing anticipation of where my journey would lead me.

Finally, I came to a circle of people holding hands ~ the circle opened and they let me inside. A pastor that I know who lives in Africa was there and he had a message for me. Words of wisdom followed ~ I was overwhelmed with tears as the words came to my ears ~

HEAL THE BROKEN HEARTED
LOVE WITHOUT CEASING
FOLLOW YOUR VISIONS
GIVE HOPE TO THE HOPELESS
GIVE FAITH TO THE FAITHLESS

The messages went on and on. I cried out,
"I am so small and only one person! How can I possibly help all of these souls?"
The answer was clear,
"You are strong, help one person at a time and don't ever give up!"
Such a daunting task, but I was fully aware that, yes, this was my calling.

These messages came to me probably in the first 15 minutes of my breathwork and 2 hours later I remembered everything I had heard word for word. Keep in mind that about a month later I found out about my Chiari Malformation. I was on the edge of a journey that would radically change the course of my life journey ~ what a journey it has been and it's far from over.

I have been incredibly illuminated by the messages I received two years ago ~ new life has been breathed into me and once again my mission is clear. I feel a profound calling to help those in need ~ to shed light into the dark corners in this big, bad Chiari journey. Clearly I am just one person in a sea of millions, but I want to help make the road a little less daunting for others that will find themselves on this journey. Thanks so much to you blog lurkers who have commented and sent me e-mails ~ you have given me validation that what I write is encouraging and helpful. Those of you who lurk and haven't reached out to me, know that I am just an e-mail away.