Friday, June 1, 2007

Time Well Wasted

Just this week, I have come to the realization that I am in a state of massive withdrawal! SERIOUSLY! No ~ maybe I am in mourning ~ where have all of the familiar faces gone? McDreamy, Meredith, Bailey, George ~ Allison and Joe ~ Jack, Kate, Sawyer, Desmond, Hurley. Charlie ~ The Walker Clan ~ Men In Trees ~ Ugly Betty ~ Liz Lemon & Jack Donaghy ~ Claire, Hiro, the Patrelli brothers, Parkman ~ Pam, Jim, Dwight, Michael ~ Grissom & Sidle ~ SERIOUSLY!

I am awestruck by how much time I spend getting to know all of the characters in the shows I watch, but then again, all of this abuse of the DVR has been quite therapeutic for me. Since I found out that my Brain Tail has moved into my spinal column ~ it has occupied my every waking and sleeping thought. I don't enjoy being so in tuned with myself ~ so self absorbed in every physical symptom caused by said Brain Tail. Escapism has been my ticket away from myself, if just for a couple of hours ~ let's call it 'self medication'. It's a good coping mechanism so I don't drive myself completely coo coo! But what in the world am I going to do while my TV friends are on their summer vacations????

We are moving in 14 days ~ maybe I should use my new free time to throw some stuff in boxes ~ brilliant idea. But SERIOUSLY, I feel as if my TV friends are actually my friends. How sad it that?!? I tune in each week to see what kind of decisions they are going to make, how they are going to embarrass themselves, how will they resolve conflicts ~ good stuff ~ Maybe I will spend more time blogging this summer ~ anything to keep my mind off the waiting game with impending surgeries.

So ~ what do you think? Have I been wasting time or has it been time well wasted?


E said...

I think that your time well wasted is probably the most normal thing that's going on with you now! Embrace it! It makes the most perfect sense in the world that you want to focus on fantasy characters rather than yourself!

And guess what - the packing? It will get done in the end. It always does because it has to. Don't sweat it.

AND what a phenomenal opportunity to watch EMPEROR OF THE SEA and get to know the characters in my BELOVED Korean Drama!

I'm shameless in my maniacal attempts to get SOMEONE I know to watch my shows!!!!

FutureFoodTVStar said...

I thoroughly abuse my Tivo on a daily basis. It holds all of my friends for me and every night as I'm fighting to keep my eyes open, I have to go thru and make sure everything I haven't watched yet isn't in danger of being deleted due to lack of memory.

My Tivo keeps friends named Rachael Ray, Barbara Walters, Joy Behar, Rosie O'Donnell, Ellen Degeneres, Oprah Winfrey, and Emeril Lagasse. It also keeps track of House & Cold Case and How I Met Your Mother.

I don't think it's weird because you think of those characters as your friends, because I certainly usually feel like that towards the contestants on AI, Top Chef & The Next Food Network Star. It's sad when one has to go home at the end of the episode.

Chiari has taken over my brain too. I love all you call it your brain tail. I just tell people, "oh, don't mind me, my brain just fell out of my skull."

I feel like I am one of the lucky ones as I am still able to work and basically live my life. I never exercised prior to my diagnosis so being told I wasn't supposed to exercise wasn't much of a blow.

What stays on my mind the most is the pain. Some days it's not that bad. Some days I wish I could die. The headaches that come and go based on what game the weather and mother nature decided to play on us that day.

I was diagnosed during my 3rd semester of culinary school and ended up being forced to take a medical leave the next quarter. I miss culinary school and the dream I had of being a chef and owning my own restaurant (hence, the name of my blog).

I will also be moving in the next couple of months. I'm not looking forward to packing. My thoughts are with you on that horribly annoying task.

sandy said...

Sometimes I think the characters in my head are like balcony people, watching my life and saying, "Atta' way to go!" Sort of like an adopted cyberfamily that's always there.

It's all good. I agree...self-preoccupation ad nauseum is living hell. Not to mention...BORING.

I don't think marathoning with the DVR is nuts at all. Maybe weed and oxycontin would be better?%^&*? NOT....