Time has been speeding up for me. My chiari friends have told me on numerous occasions that as my surgery date draws nearer time will speed up. So true and the last couple of months have been a blur. It's like I am on some kind of souped up auto pilot. Sure, I am pretty functional ~ I get my work done at work, keep up with house chores; but I feel as though i am walking around in someone elses body. True Story!
I am trying to stay focused with the tasks at hand for each day ~ it keeps my mind occupied. Although many thoughts take me away from focusing on the Lord, I am quietly reminded with words of encouragement that I am His ~ He is in control. It's a daily struggle ~ surrendering over and over again my fears and anxiety over brain surgery. oi!
I wanted to share the lyrics below of a song that has lifted me up.
Hope Now ~ Addison Road
If everything comes down to love
Then just what am I afraid of
When I call out Your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly I forget I'm Yours
(PRE-CHORUS)
I'm not my own
I've been carried by You
All my life(
CHORUS)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free
When my life is like a storm
Rising waters when all I want is the shore
You say I'll be ok and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm
(PRE-CHORUS)
I'm not my ownI've been carried by You
All my life
(CHORUS)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free
(CHORUS 2)
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free
You've become my hearts desire
I will sing Your praises higher
Cause Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
Your love sets me free
2 comments:
Lacie~
Hang in there, just focus on getting better. Everything else falls into place. It has been a long recovery for me, but I am glad I went thru with my decompression 10 months ago. Family and friends like you got me thru the ordeal. Lots of hugs~Patti
When you are done with the surgery and you dont take a pain pill for the first time you will find that you have such mental clarity that it will startle you, it did me. I could not figure out how I had been working through it and just how bad it had been until I was done with the surgery. Moving a little brain tissue around makes a HUGE difference.
As for the surgery, sure it is big and scarry thinking of someone working on your brain, but the doctors at TCI are some of the best, and I think you could not be in much better hands.
Stay focused, get your rest, give yourself permission to take a day off when you need it, and don't be afraid to ask for help. That was the hardest thing for me. When I could not balance the checkbook because my mind was not working I had to just say "Jesus take the wheel" so to speak and get help.
Hang in there, call or write if you ever need to talk, or to pray.
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