I Still Have Hope

I have no explanation ~ why and how can I have a shred of hope left after the week I've had. My brain tail continues to try and kick my ass and now Vertigo is back for an extended stay ~ completely uninvited ~ all I can do is continue to press through it all ~ One Day At A Time. I am sure there are many of you out there in various places in your chiari journey and this might not be the best of news you might want to read ~ but it's the truth. Dealing with Chiari is a life long process ~ but something I am learning more and more is to take better care of myself and give myself down time when my body is screaming for rest. IF I don't listen ~ I pay the price. This morning I had to surrender to vertigo and was grounded on the floor of my bathroom for a few hours as I tried to draw some strength from my reserves so that I could go spend some time reconnecting with a local Chiari friend. We all need love and support of other chiarians who understand how it feels to be a brain surgery survivor and a struggling chiarian. These connections give us strength and HOPE.

To You my future is a memory

I heard this song last week and it really spoke to me ~ gave me renewed perspective. I've been off line for a while in the blog world and hope to be writing again. I've really had to dig deep and sort a lot of things out in my life. I am shocked and amazed at all the trials that get thrown into my life path ~ but with one breath at a time I keep moving through it with high hopes of healing.

Already There ~ Casting Crowns

From where I'm standing

Lord, it's so hard for me to see

Where this is going

And where You're leading me

I wish I knew how

All my fears and all my questions

Are going to play out

In a world I can't control

When I'm lost in the mystery

To You my future is a memory

'Cause You're already there

You're already there

Standing at the end of my life

Waiting on the other side

And You're already there

You're already there

From where You're standing

Lord, You see a grand design

That You imagined

When You breathed me into life

And all the chaos

Comes together in Your hands

Like a masterpiece

Of Your picture-perfect plan

When I'm lost in the mystery

To You my future is a memory

One day I'll stand before You

And look back on the life I've lived

I can't wait to enjoy the view

And see how all the pieces fit

One day I'll stand before You

And look back on the life I've lived

'Cause You're already there

You're already there

When I'm lost in the mystery

To You my future is a memory

'Cause You're already there

You're already there

Standing at the end of my life

Waiting on the other side

And You're already there

You're already there