Friday, August 17, 2012

Change My Life

Life is a journey, not a destination ~ I keep telling myself this over and over again. There is no smooth coasting time that last more than a day it seems. I continue to face challenges each an every day. Lately, with no big event that could have possibly causes a shift within ~ I've been plagued with VERTIGO.

Sure, I'm familiar with the occasional cycle of vertigo one day ~ headache the next ~ but this isn't what's been happening. I've got it non stop ~ like I've been on a serious Spring Break ~ off the rails ~ party till you drop cycle for a month now. I would make Captain Jack Sparrow extremely jealous ~ he would think I had definitely drank all the rum.

I've done a lot more research on causes of vertigo and anything that makes senses is cranial nerve compression. How do I make it stop?! This vertigo is way worse than anything I had before decompression back in late 2008. Maybe I've just had a very long migraine and vertigo is the side effect? To top it all off, my local neuro surgeon has come to the conclusion that there's nothing wrong with me. oi!

After all that's said and done, I guess I should give myself a break and be thankful that even with my world spinning all around me, I've found the strength to keep on keeping on and even try new things that are outside my comfort zone (stay tuned for the next blog entry)

The song ~ Change My Life ~ really hit home. I keep battling with God ~ just when I feel like it's impossible to put me back together, I am greatly encourage. But please start with my heart ~ it's in dire need of  healing.

Change My Life ~ Ashes Remain

I'm still awake tonight
I'm broken up inside
I want to run
but I don't know where to go
I'm calling Your name through the pain
will You turn Your face to me?
I'm crying out
I need a miracle

If You could make the sun burn through the night
and You could make the dead man come alive
if You could make the oceans all run dry
then I know You can change my life
I know You can change my life

I wanna know who You are,
that You can fix my heart
and I don't have to run anymore
open my eyes, let me see
give me hope and set me free
'cause I don't want to be the way I was before


give me something to believe in
something worth fighting for
something that I can't ignore

You could make the sun burn through the night
You could make the oceans all run dry


I need You to change my life
I need You to change my life

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